If i have the time i will definitely post about my thailand trip to pattaya and bangkok!!  Yup so i got my results i must say its fairly good but it just didnt reach my expectations and i am sorry if in any way i have hurt the people around me for crying in disappointment.  I cant control my emotions well. I tried to be considerate but i couldnt so if i have offended anybody i am deeply sorry cause apparently i have plenty of haters.... I guess??? Due to my unlikeable personality lol i have no idea ..  Having deproved is a huge disappointment in my case. And i even promised
My hcl teacher an A1, like i told her i was confident . Ohwell..... I hope everything would be fine for my future two years in jc, meet good people and study hard. In my entire 16 years and 3 months i must say i have emotionally matured over the years as i meet people( good or bad) they have all shaped the way i think and interact. I am really careful when i interact with others, i dont trust people around me easily anymore. Throughout my four years in anglican, there were times when i encountered problems and once thought to myself if it would be better if i had ended my life. I would never forget how some people brought me down to hell and how others rescued me. How some doubted my intelligence and character.... But this has thought me that i cant please everyone around me and i have to find people who would accept me for who i am. And look who is ahead now.. I am really sensitive so i can sort of feel who dislikes me even if they dont show it. Maybe that is why i am so emotionally unstable lol Glad to have everybody who are around me now and i cant Imagine my future without them. Adventuring into jc is definitely something i feel extremely nervous about and lets say uneasy..all the best everyone!!

the thought scares me.
everything scares me.
people scare me.
I am afraid.
why?
how?
what?
what do people really want to achieve?
sometimes i want to be a kid again and be innocent and unaware of the evil on earth.
but,
kids nowadays are as corrupted as adults.
So i dont know anymore.
I am afraid.
from i miss you ep 11 , bora's letter to her mother before committing suicide due to sexual assault

"
Mom, you have told me to come home fast before it even gets dark when school is over, but I didn’t listen to you, I’m sorry.

You get so upset even when I scrap my knee but my body is all bruised blue and black, im so sorry.

Mom, with your hurt wrist, you ironed my school uniform so nicely. Im sorry for getting it all dirty.

“its something like a car accident. I’ll get over it” I also want to think of it that way, but I just cant. I am sorry.

“Are you alright?” Those people who asked are starting to ask me less, but I still have nightmares.

You didn’t even sleep well, mum. Because I shouted and cried. I am sorry.

Those people are coming out from jail after 5 years.

Mom…goodbye."

 even if its just a drama, i get so many emotions rising in me.
i am just too emotional for my own good.
i am afraid.

korea june hols trip!!

I actually took about 700 photos in korea...WOWWWWWWWW
im pretty excited to blog about this!!!
definitely gonna pack my room tomorrow
and learn exo dances later ...
!!!!!!!!!!EGGCITEDDDDD
seriously i cant remember anything
the itinerary i mean...
i cant remember which places are in which places
like jeju seoul or what..
er nvm la hor see pictures can le la.
throughout this trip I never once tried to unleash the inner korean in me HAHAHAH
i really couldnt speak korean to koreans la LIKE SO WEIRD what if i pronounce something wrongly
and i really cant stand it when my family members end up speaking weird korean i mean
the laughter from those shop owners must be like sarcastic or smth......
When my mum and aunt said annyeonghasaeyo(inaccurately) to this cute guy working at this cycling thing
i totally screamed out of embarassment..and he stared at me like "WTH IS WRONG W/YOU"
so... i was traumatised ...cause i embarassed myself in front of ...a cute guy.. ): sobs
frankly speaking.. its not cause i have a soft spot for koreans lor...
but the korean guys there are really better looking than singaporean guys...
ok enough blabbering here!!

ok so the building behind is some idk like prime minister place?? so you cannot stand past the yellow line which is supposedly behind me. the guy on the rollerblades is a securityguard like cool right
they will ask u to move forward if u stand behind the yellow line
standing behind the yellow line probably means that you are a potential danger to their ministers 

PRETTY PLACE!! 

inside the palace

in the hotel!

what a cool phone like i can understand like that.ok maybe i can

SUPER BAD WEATHER AND WE HAVE TO CLIMB LIKE THIS MOUNTAIN I WORE A PONCHO AND IT TEARED EVERYWHERE LOL

some village place where da chang jin filmed at ??

 what kind of flowers are these... i couldnt stop taking photos of it

 moon that embraces the sun!!!!!!!!! some costume store or smth in the middle of nowhere in the village

3D ART MUSEUM!!

 some dragon head rock thing

waiting to board the plane (from seoul to jeju?) I DK

 this is a place where many dramas filmed .. familiar fountains

 on the train with mama

 sidedishes!!!

 bear museum

 my boyfriend kissing me on the cheek

 PANDAAAAAAS

 look at my cute cousin hiding behind the bear awww

 my grandparents

 sitting this to reach the mountain

 SERIOUSLY THIS IS DAMN SCARY i couldnt stop asking my mum to come closer to me cause
its like no barriers... and if u trip or smth you will just freaking fall off the mountain ok i dont want to talk about it anymore. but my mum is not scared so..well for me..... hahaha people actually dared to climb all the way up with only a rope OK NO WAY man
everland?

 this is a ride that you would probably see many times while watching your korean idols !! snsd brought kyungsoo here before on hello baby!

 white tiger

 so the bears can perform tricks!! if the weather is too hot they'll be too lazy to move so too bad too sad.
clapping bear

 waving bear

 LAMA?? CAMEL??

 yummy icecream. have to try their icecream in korea. i think i ate one everyday. ohyes banana milk also once/twice everyday. ice cream at myeongdong is good , try greentea flavour!! the one that kwanghee and sunhwa ate on wgm

 performance!!

 er not in order sorry sudden random bear

 this is where korean idols like to film their performances!! I remember apink? and eunji+yoseob!

 shinee

 HAHAHA ok sorry

 meals in korea are my favourite cause its meat i mean MEAT MEAT MEAT!!!!!11

 me taking a photo on the streets of seoul at night

 some breakfast like all the different types of porridge!! the green one is seaweed porridge the rest i forgot.

 My aunt won 3rd place hahah she was embarassed to find out shes the only adult in the top 3.

 supposed to carve mugs out of ice and drink f&n orange from it hahaha ..guess what happened to my mug..

...................... Oh well i had some f&n orange from my mum's cup so..

 ICE GALLERY!!

 LOTTE WORLD!!!!!!!

 so i didnt venture out cause the supposedly more exciting rides are outside but since there are young children and elderly .. we stayed inside!!

 han river!

 had lunch here

 MYEONGDONG!! here is the place where u can find branded shops but no point la sg also have. forever21 is cheaper according to my aunt but yeah... i just went in and out so i dont know!! got all the make up shops .. they repeat like dont know how many times. u walk down one street you can see 4 etude house hahaha venture further down and you can find those small korean clothing shops yeah like everything range from $5-$15 cheap!!! myeongdong is a better place to shop as compared to dongdaemun .. if go with tour they bring u into this building that sells clothes at a price of $20+++ which is quite cheap but not as cheap as myeongdong so like up to you?? you can make a choice .

overall KOREA IS MY DREAM COUNTRY ok the end.